just venting

Nothing on my mind today....

Sometimes in life things don't go the way you want them to. ... How are we supposed to respond when that happens? Well, you can take it as a temporary setback, but use it to motivate you to reach where you want to be.....

or, you can say that God didn't want it to happen....or you can sulk. I don't even know which option is the best. i think I usually look for a plan B when plan A doesn't happen.

I think I'm looking forward to being a wife. I'm ready ( I think) to constantly share of myself with someone....NOT SEXUALLY, though that's a part of it. I'm talking more of sharing my time, my emotions, my conversation, my efforts, my money.....I like the thought of cooking for my husband, decorating a home, folding laundry....loading the dishwasher....seems kind of fun right now. I may change my mind when I get married; who knows.
Also, though....that feeling that at least 2 people always have your back no matter what: God and your spouse. That has to be a good feeling. I bet some married people don't even feel like their spouse has their back though; they probably feel like them and their spouse are against each other....Must be a tormenting feeling.

I fear that I'll fall short as a wife: that I'll get too fat, or lazy, or too preoccupied or something. I don't know what other areas I'll fall short in. I wish I was perfect....