MY COMMUNICATION CONFESSIONS

Am I good communicator? It depends. If I'm telling you general information, I'm pretty good. When it comes to constructive criticism, or expressing dislikes, I'm not so good.

I recently realized that a lot of the people around me don't really know how I feel about certain things. I am the ultimate protector of feelings, and have found myself in the past being quite deceptive to elude any confrontations which would involve elaborating on one's character flaws.

I think the problem was that back in the day (before I knew Jesus) my mouth was off the charts. I never thought before I spoke. I just spoke, and usually the wrong (and inappropriate) things came out. I was a very disrespectful kid, profanity was my native language, and I didn't care about whose feelings I could hurt.

SO then I did a complete 180, and maybe now I care too much about people's feelings. I didn't tell my last boyfriend about some of his major flaws until we were through. And then, here lately, I've been making attempts to be more honest with people. Sometimes I proceed with caution, and a few times I've had some slips of the mouth.

So, the moral of the story is: please don't ask me a question where I may think that the truth could hurt your feelings. Unless you expressly ask me not to, there's a 75% chance that I will manipulate my answer. Sorry, I'm working on it.